|—||Galileo (via blazeoflight)|
The problem is that I’m starting to fall in love with my blues, because they’re just mine. ”No one really understands” (I can’t even explain) and it’s ok and I know this sounds like a ‘first-world-problem’ kinda thing but I’m honestly very tired, sad, lonely, indifferently heart-ached. I’ve never felt more lonely in my life even now that I have kind friends for the first time (God bless them). I wish I could turn into a river and flow away feeling-less through the mountains into the Ocean, numb to the world- changing effortlessly the geography of my path (by grace alone). I am my own worst enemy sometimes and a great pretender too. That’s a dangerous combination. I hope this are just my sleepless hours speaking, that this too shall pass. Miles Davis was so good though… (Kinda blue is awesome just listen to it) and maybe it’s just a stage, I’ve been through darker times and I came out in one piece, in Christ it’s possible! Still, I know I can trust Him with my doubts, fears and feelings, as scary or bad they might be. He is greater than anything created or to be!
ps. Too much introspection is never a good thing: All the best of us is found in Christ who lives in us, not in ourselves or past nature. (5 am conclusion)
ps2. Cobalt teal though… me and my pale-ass self would friggin’ rock a dress in that color!